I must have been a bird in another life because these days nesting is my new favourite thing! Now that I can see the wood from the trees, or at least the carpet from the boxes, I have decided that this really is a home, a sweet home.
Forgive another animal analogy, but I have been marking out my territory in the kitchen like a right bitch (of the canine, and not the mean variety, obviously!)
I have been cooking up a storm and baking faster than I can blog the recipes. As a result everyone at work is having their cake and eating it and this much I can say, a cake day is a happy day!
Now that there’s almost nothing else to do on the home front, I can start to count down to my tests – exactly one month away. There’s no point worrying about something I can’t control, so although I’m mindful of what’s ahead, I’m not going to busy my little brain worrying about it. I like to think I’m a pragmatist, but maybe I’m just an ostrich with my head stuck in the sand.
I hooked up with my counsellor yesterday. It’s not long in real time since we last had a chat, but it seems like light years, and so much has happened inbetween. I surprised myself just how much living I’ve managed to fit in; (half) marathon, a move and the happiest holiday ever, and that’s just for starters.
Counselling allows us to stop and take stock and think about things. I don’t know why we don’t do it as a matter of course in real life, I guess it’s because we’re too busy, or too scared or our “spectacles of life” are just too “steamed up” to see things clearly. Talking about then, and now, I realise I have come full circle. My counsellor remembered how I shaped up when she saw me that very first day. I was like a rabbit caught in headlights (sorry… I couldn’t resist just one more animal analogy!) Full of fear and a bundle of nerves.
Now I’m living life in exactly the way I’ve intended, with meaning, purpose and a happy heart. I’m pleased that she’s happy that I’ve made so much progress, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Most of all, I’m just happy to be me, and to be here. I am home.
Have you any more animal analogies you’d care to share?